"Everyone deserves to be loved and to live a meaningful life. My mission is to share my personal story to bring hope and inspiration to others."
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"In a world that teaches you to become someone –
I remembered who I already am."
Christian lell
Who Am I
From Ego to Essence.
I’ve lived many lives in one. First, as the version of me the world expected – performer, fighter, achiever.
I chased success to fill the silence. But one day, I stopped running.
I sat. I breathed. I listened.
And in the stillness, something ancient in me woke up.
That was the beginning.
Silence is not a retreat. It is a homecoming.
It was silence that saved me – not noise.
When everything outside collapsed, I turned inward.
At first, I resisted the quiet.
But with each breath, each meditation, I began to feel again.
Not pain – but presence. Not shame – but self.
Meditation didn’t make me better. It broth me back home .
Meditation became my return path – back into the body, back into the breath, back into the frequency of consciousness that we truly are. Through daily practice, I remembered:
We are not our stories, not our past, not even our thoughts.
We are energy. Vibration. Awareness.
And this awareness – when anchored in stillness – draws itself through the subtle field into form. Into the body. Into this life.
It is not escape.
It is embodiment.
It is the remembering of our original frequency – which came to this Earth to rise, to expand, and to return to its highest dimension of consciousness through learning, feeling, and evolving in human form.
ABOUT CHRISTIAN
A NEW BEGINNING.
After 25 years in professional football – chasing dreams and running from shadows – I reached a point where the outside world no longer held meaning. Success, recognition, achievement – none of it touched the emptiness inside.
My journey back began not with a breakthrough, but through a slow, quiet return to what’s real:
Presence. Simplicity. Truth.
ABOUT CHRISTIAN
a reminder of love.
There are people in our lives who shape us far beyond words. My sister is one of them.
Though no longer by my side, her presence continues to guide me – as a reminder of love, of resilience, and of what truly matters.
To honor this deep connection, I founded the – a space dedicated to supporting children and young people who face illness, emotional struggle, or life’s deeper questions.
This is not about charity. It’s about truth. It’s about remembering who we are – and giving others the strength to do the same.
"After a childhood filled with violence, alcohol, abuse and the trauma of being publicly torn apart, dealing with my sister’s early death, my depression, and the guilt over my privileged life – such as my career as a professional soccer player – were incredibly painful experiences. But it was these challenges that ultimately put me on the path to finding myself."
Christian lell
THE BOOK
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NOISE TO STILLNESS.
This book isn’t about winning.
It’s about remembering.
Remembering that after the ego got identified, a pure life begins.
In these pages, I share how silence became my medicine.
How presence became my teacher.
And how letting go became the a powerful choice I made.
This is the story of a man who was distracted by success – and brought back to life by stillness.
„Early childhood in a broken home. Then a dream comes true - a career as a pro soccer player. Then the setbacks. The wild behavior. Drunk driving. The tabloid headlines…“
EXCERPT FROM MY UPCOMING BIOGRAPHY
„I was drowning in a sea of superficiality. Popping open the champagne bottle and sipping the sparkling wine made it hard to talk about the uncomfortable parts of life - like my sick sister's health, the fear of existence and the depression.“
EXCERPT FROM MY UPCOMING BIOGRAPHY
"A chill runs down my spine at the feeling that I am once again approaching an abyss. An abyss I know all too well and hoped never to face again."
EXCERPT FROM MY UPCOMING BIOGRAPHY
WHY THIS SPACE EXISTS
This space is not here to fix you.
It’s here to remind you.
To remind you that healing doesn’t happen in noise – it happens in stillness.
You don’t need more tools.
You need to remember your breath.
You don’t need to become someone.
You need to come home.
Because when we stop identifying with the ego, we begin to experience who we truly are: A frequency of consciousness, rising through matter – called to awaken through life.
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TIME FOR REAL TALK.
After talking with people from all walks of life, I’ve realized how important it is to take an honest look at ourselves – even when it’s hard – and make room for real change. No shortcuts, no sugarcoating, just the truth.
As a speaker, I share my personal story – with all the bumpy parts – to encourage others to move forward in their own lives. By speaking honestly about my journey, I hope to shed light on mental health and offer a path out of the darkness.
WHAT OTHERS SAY ABOUT ME
Jan Liepold
Podcast-Host and Author
„I’m deeply impressed by Christian’s journey – how he worked his way out of deep crises and now looks back with reflection and clarity. His courage to share his story is truly inspiring and shows that real change is possible.“
Dr. Albert Kitzler
Philosopher
"Great respect! What’s extraordinary about Christian is that he began asking the most fundamental philosophical questions very early on. Then, when the right person came along at the right time, everything that had been brewing inside him took shape, allowing him to form his own path. I find that amazing and wonderful.“
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